After Your Heart

It's easy to neglect God. I will sometimes run straight to the components instead. I'll worship until my heart wants to give out, receive encouragement and council, anything. I can handle leadership, mission trips, ministry, worship, and even intercession but I sometimes cannot handle having a conversation with the person who these things all revolve around. I run over God with the things that are like him. I can easily fill in the empty spaces in my life with these things. But sometimes I can't fill my empty heart with the actual person. The actual presence that redeems all lost hearts. Sometimes it's because I'm afraid. Sometimes it's because I'm distracted. Sometimes I'm ashamed. And sometimes I feel hopeless which is crazy because that's the reason he came. They all are reasons. And here I am, worrying about such small problems and there you are ready to bring me peace. When I mess up, there you are ready to bring forgiveness. When I neglect you and finally come back to you in repentance, there you are waiting with love and compassion. Here I am, a human, and there you are, a God, who allows me to become like his Son. I want to be after your heart, not just the things produced from your goodness.