Surrender Becoming A Song

Well, this season has been the absolute hardest, most challenging, mind blowing, uncomfortable, God seeking season ever. I look back on who I was before and can't begin to fathom how I am where I am. Being put in my own type of ministry, with the total control and honor given to the Lord. It is different and crazy at some points. I'm placed in plenty different areas of ministry that it has been challenging to put my wholeness into each area; in God's timing and calling. But thank God ministry isn't categorized it's unified. I'm stepping into a season of complete change, combining my season of growth and submission with total surrender. Surrender brings thoughts of loneliness. Surrendering is giving your all, faith being your stronghold. You cannot surrender and come back shortly after and beg for the values, people, dreams, and goals that you gave up. Submission is a daily practice, but surrendering is a life given up with no turning back. You can run away from submission but not from surrender. I wonder every day if I will ever have the strength to surrender. I hand Him piece by piece of my life and still find that he wants more. Not in a demanding way. But in a way to where He is showing me it will be so much more rewarding if I hand everything over now. Surrender is not a solo act of obedience. It's a vocalist beginning the song, flowing the song to the Partner, and beginning the lovely duet that will fill the ears of all that hear. Alone a voice is heard, but combined a duet becomes a choir, impressing a song into hearts.

Dance With Me

Where you are at right now is where He wants you. In His arms, dancing with him. We do not always have to move forward. We don't have to look beyond our present to see our future. Jesus can tell us our future, and by all means want you to pursue it as well. But to get to the then you have to understand, live in, and believe in the now. You can't believe in the future without being fully supportive and believing what is going on in your life now. There is no fast forward button. God longs to speak to you and even more to just embrace you. To dance with you. To hold you for a minute, tell you you're beautiful and he's absolutely crazy about you. Take your chains of the moment and throw them to the floor. Twirl you around until you're laughing hysterically. Pour his grace and new mercies out onto you. He is in your present, he is in your presence. You are in his presence constantly and he just wants to dance with you. He wants to hear you worship him and he wants to tell you your worth. Hold you in his arms until all of your mess is squeezed out of you. Until you fall to your knees in awe and adoration of just him dancing with you. Think about it, the Lord of the heavens wants to stop all of your life for a moment and dance with you. To interrupt your constant motion and schedule. Not to stop you from doing his will or living life, but to shower his love on you and catapult you into your next steps. Your steps can be a path and direction, but they can also be a dance.