Surrender Becoming A Song

Well, this season has been the absolute hardest, most challenging, mind blowing, uncomfortable, God seeking season ever. I look back on who I was before and can't begin to fathom how I am where I am. Being put in my own type of ministry, with the total control and honor given to the Lord. It is different and crazy at some points. I'm placed in plenty different areas of ministry that it has been challenging to put my wholeness into each area; in God's timing and calling. But thank God ministry isn't categorized it's unified. I'm stepping into a season of complete change, combining my season of growth and submission with total surrender. Surrender brings thoughts of loneliness. Surrendering is giving your all, faith being your stronghold. You cannot surrender and come back shortly after and beg for the values, people, dreams, and goals that you gave up. Submission is a daily practice, but surrendering is a life given up with no turning back. You can run away from submission but not from surrender. I wonder every day if I will ever have the strength to surrender. I hand Him piece by piece of my life and still find that he wants more. Not in a demanding way. But in a way to where He is showing me it will be so much more rewarding if I hand everything over now. Surrender is not a solo act of obedience. It's a vocalist beginning the song, flowing the song to the Partner, and beginning the lovely duet that will fill the ears of all that hear. Alone a voice is heard, but combined a duet becomes a choir, impressing a song into hearts.